Ah, that's better.  The wafting stank has been cleaned, the baby has been bathed and re-clothed and...oh, wait,whats that?  Puke!  It's all over both of us.  I should have stocks in laundry detergent.

I have thought about starting a blog for months, but one thing or another has kept me from doing it.  How do I start one?  How do I pick a name or topic?  Who would read it?  Would I have time to keep it up between running a house and taking care of my 3 daughters?  Today I decided, "Who cares!"  I can figure it out.  I can make up a name.  If no one reads it I'll at least have put words on paper, er, screen?  Already I've been interrupted 4 times, but if nothing else I am good at multi-tasking.  I chose the blog name because 1. I am a mom and 2. I usually only have a minute!  Funnily enough, I don't like referring to myself as "mommy" but it was the best I could come up with when putting myself on the spot.  I have never been good at making small decisions, but give me a a life altering choice and I am great!  Like the decision to up and move to a different province with no family for support and start a family?  Great!  Let's do that!  But what should I make for dinner?  Ummmm....

In the last 5 years I have had 3 children (all girls...I know.), 3 different jobs (who really knows what they wanna be when they grow up anyways?) and have recently become a stay at home mom.  My husband jokes that I am on early retirement.  It's been kind of tough to accept that once my maternity runs out I will be 'unemployed'.  While I am happy to stay home and raise my beautiful girls, part of me wonders if I am cut out to be at home full time?  I try to fill our days with fun activities and outings, and be thankful my husband works hard so I am able to raise our children.  And although I truly believe that women who stay home to raise their children are amazing and strong and selfless in that they put whatever their wants and needs are on hold to do so, I am have a very difficult time accepting myself in that role.  I hope I will get used to it one day.

The real reason I wanted to do this was to get my thoughts out of my head.  I am sure there are others out there who, like me, have things whirling through their heads with no real outlet on a day to day basis.  If someone reads this, great!  If not, oh well.  If I can just sit here and type this out maybe it will fill in the part of me that seems to need something more, something just for me.  Even if it's only for a minute.